Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Floundering in the What If's

There is freedom waiting for you...

I'm having a strangely hard time dealing with life right now. I graduate in May and so I feel like every tiny decision will have a huge impact on what I do next.

On the breezes of the sky... 

What if I say the wrong thing to the right person? What if I burn bridges before I even know there is a bridge to burn? What if my inability to concentrate causes me to miss the opportunity of a life time? What if my forgetfulness lands me somewhere I don't want to be? What if I mess up? What if I fail? What if I disappoint?

And you ask "what if I fall?"

Oh how I loathe those two words! What if? Always bouncing around in my head like a childhood bully high on sugar! What if? Taunting and goading me into feeling the worst kind of unease, like something prickling under your skin. What if? Itches and grates behind my eyes right where I can't touch it.

Oh but my darling...

What if I need to stop asking? What if I need to just let it happen? What if I allow myself to break through the boundaries? What if I let myself try?

What if you FLY?
-Eric Hansen

Thursday, January 19, 2017

Introductions Make Me Nervous

Honestly, I'm kind of nervous to be making this blog.

I'm definitely awkward and always a little anxious, but this will probably be good for me. To get my thoughts out of my head and onto something a little more tangible.

Okay, deep breath...

My name is Emily.

I'm 22 years old and a senior in college. I stress out easily and really hate mornings.

I suffer from depression and general anxiety. That's basically what this blog will be about. My inner thoughts, fears, anxiety, some tips on getting out of low places and how to cope when things get rough.

I pray this blog will be as helpful to others as I hope it will be to me.