I really feel like killing myself today.
My chest is too tight, my heart is being crushed and I can't quite breathe right.
My hands are shaking, my body's aches and I want nothing more than to cut the things from my soul that rip and shred and poison me.
I hate this.
I hate myself.
I hate the body I inhabit and the space I take up.
I want to disappear or sleep for an eternity.
I wish to be nothing.
I want to kill myself today.