Uneasy Meanderings

*sits in bed, unable to force myself to do important things cause my brain fucking hates me* Why are you like this?

So wow. I just read through my whole blog (it's not a ton of posts, but it's a good chunk of things I suppose) and I figured it's been a long time so an update so anyone who reads this (highly doubtful, but a kid can dream) knows where I'm at. I've been on anti-depressants for almost a year and for me, they are working out well. While I am still currently living at my parents, I am moving out in May to live with Devin. I am so thrilled and terrified it is unreal. I actually did get a full-time job in my field. I equally hate and love my job. I hate it because I realize I really just want to do film. I love it because I am getting so strong from carrying around 60 plus pounds of camera equipment and am outside almost every day. Also being a news photographer is weird. People either really like you or absolutely hate you. I haven't ever come out on this blog, but I recently realized I am genderfluid and my fiancé accepts and loves me just the way I am. I c