I Hate My Brain
I am currently stuck in class listening to people giving presentations on blogs and I want nothing more than to run away outside in the rain. Well, sprinkle I guess? It's not raining hard yet. I love the rain. I love standing in it and letting it wash away my thoughts. I hate the way my brain works. I am fighting tooth and nail every day to try and make it through. My thoughts latch on to the worst possible things and never let it go. I pray for peace and my mind fights me even still. I want to cut so fucking badly it's a physical itch under my skin. Rage: Original Photography by Em Kemper Archetypes and Mental Illness Photo Series I want a cigarette to help me breathe, but I'm on birth control so that's a horrible idea. I want to drink, but I just started antidepressants so that's an even worse idea. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I want to sit in the rain, not in this stupid class... ok class isn't stupid, I love this class, but I don't want to