Just When I Think I'm Better

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TRIGGER WARNING: Self Harm

Man you know, I changed my color scheme,

I wrote a nice, positive post,

I thought I maybe, just maybe,  FINALLY had this whole life thing sorta handled

HAHAHHAHAHAH

FUCK

Man I am in such a good mood, 

Who woulda thought something so bad would feel so lovely!

I cut the fuck out of my arm for the first time in...

Well shit, I don't remember the last time.

My, then fiancé, now husband was still living in Tulsa.

......

Holy Shit I was still in college.

Man, that's a bit of a bummer.

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